Bring Me the Summer of My Youth

I’m ready for summer. I need the heat- I’ve become so tired of the cold and dampness.  I want to see sunflowers again- those big ones that seem so life-affirming. I am doing more writing -creative writing- and am going to start sending things out soon, once I’m finished with five of my short stories.  [...]

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I Feel Like Having a Drink

I can’t though.  Sadly, drinking, with the meds I’m on, is now a part of my past.  I do occasionally see some loner like myself walking home after closing time if I’m up and wandering around the great metropolis of Frederick in the wee hours. (Hell, I’m crazy-who would mug me?)  Yeah, Klonopin and Geodon [...]

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Psych Ward

 I haven’t talked much about my hospital stay earlier last year except in some oblique references to some changes in my medications and just saying I was “institutionalized” for a stint. During my stay from April until June I not only got to go to the psych ward during my psychotic episode, but also be treated for a [...]

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Warm Weather at Last

Finally- some decent weather where you can actually enjoy the outdoors without an underlying feeling of chilled dampness. One of my cats looked like a tiger today-stalking through the overgrown flowerbeds.  It seems to have brightened my mood as well- I’m feeling reasonably glad to be alive and have been spending time with Ben during [...]

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I’ve Got the Blues

Chose to do a oil on loose canvas of John Coltrane with a palette knife.  I’m in a blues type of mood, really.  I’m feeling quite alone and in an abstract way, rather sad. The mood has lifted a little bit over the past few days, but I do wish that  I lived in a [...]

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