Cold Embrace

 There is something about kissing in the shrill air of the January winds that somehow makes it more poignant, more crisp. You can somehow feel it more fully and feel what it conveys more deeply. Is it as meaningful as all that for “normal” people? In some selfish way I hope not-I hope it’s one [...]

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Snow !!

Snow!- actual snow- finally!  It was about time I heard the healthy scrape of shovels against icy pavement again. Mmmm…snow-who doesn’t love it?!

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Pub Crawl sans Moi

 
Here’s a picture I did of a local pub. In it, I think I more imagined than saw the fug of nicotine smoke that used to hang over the place before smoking was forbidden; back in the days when I could order something stronger than a diet Coke. I am no longer able to drink- [...]

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Shopper

My well-broadcast views on consumerism (for regular readers) seasonal or otherwise, reflects the healthy brand of cynicism that comes of having worked in advertising. It’s the business of persuasion, and most people don’t really need that much persuading. The message, both subliminal and overt is: “Spend your money or else someone, somewhere, might somehow think that you [...]

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Bus Shelter

I love winter and I love the cold. I’m from New York and am used to long, cold, isolating winters, The latest near-zero temperatures haven’t been a friend to everyone, though. I passed this woman at a bus shelter who looked COLD, I mean enormously cold- forced teeth chatteringly cold. She was so [...]

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Snowboarding Outing

The snow that I was so eagerly awaiting never materialized so I decided to take matters into my own hands and hit the local ski slopes, where they manufacture snow.  I borrowed my daughter’s snowboard and realized a little too late that I’m just no damn good at it.  Apparently, staying upright is a prerequisite for [...]

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Not a Bad Day

 

 

 
All in all, not a bad day.  I must have slept a good 12 hours, but felt like I hadn’t slept a wink on rising. I suppose that’s why I had ample energy this afternoon, once I got a bit of (decaf) coffee in my body. Since Christmas my energy level has been waning slightly, since [...]

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Goodnight, Old Life

Back when I was “severely ill”, before hospitalization, I would practice self-harm; a thing very common in most people with bipolar disorder. I would burn myself, heating the wooden end of a large art brush on a burner element or with a lighter until it glowed a brilliant red, then apply it to my own [...]

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Skating Rink Outing

                                                                                                       I made it through the worst of it, thankfully, and am feeling better just now-I’m actually in what could be called a decent frame of mind. To counterbalance some of the bad feelings of the past days,I wanted to do something  life-affirming, something active, so the other day, just a day after my breakdown, I took my [...]

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I Made It

 If Sylvia Plath was right about anything in her short life, it is that you never know, never can tell just when the bell jar is going to descend and everything is suddenly going to go quiet. I narrowly escaped a hospital bed this time, but feel like it was by some miracle. I made a few [...]

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