Solitary Year’s End

There are times when I feel alone in crowds.  Today is just such a day. Mother had to go today and I’m rather sad to have the field to myself just now.  No exciting plans for New Year’s Eve- I think I’ll politely ignore the invitations and just stay in tonight.

 
 
 

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Post Christmas

  Life is taking on a singularly warm glow that I have not felt since childhood.  Perhaps it is having my mother around at Christmas-something that hasn’t happened since I was an adolescent. Or perhaps it’s my meds leveling me out a bit. Something, though, is apparently keeping me in a buoyant state of mind at the moment., and I’m not [...]

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Edmund Wilson Article Published/Great Day w/ Family

Today I spent the entire day with my mom and my uncle and aunt in Baltimore. We spent a great afternoon and evening shopping and sightseeing and had a very nice dinner at an exceptionally good restaurant (I had the scallops in a sun dried tomato pesto -a marked change from my usual, austere rations.) [...]

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A Wonderful Christmas Day

I had a lovely Christmas day with my mother and her partner and my daughter. When it came time to visit my son and step children at my former home to open packages, I was made to feel very much at home. I even had the good fortune to get an invitation (which I regretfully declined) [...]

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Doctor Zhivago & Me

I made this oil sketch of a lonely but colorful little tree I saw in the middle of a dark area yesterday- a metaphor for the season for some of us; lux in tenebris – light in the heart of darkness. I am often left in wonder of the human animal and their singular attachments of meaning [...]

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Great Day !

 
 I had an exceptional day today. Everything seemed to go right (and I’m not even manic-wonder of wonders!), with things falling into their respective places neatly. I wish all days could be like today. I’ve completely finished my shopping, getting my five year old son a new addition to his set of Playmobil Romans and getting [...]

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Thoughts on the Year’s End

 

I made this subtle oil sketch from a scene in the subway in New York a little while while ago. The desolation of the image just remained with me like a photograph, so I can tell the scene is a bit troubling to me. The old man, briefcase just touched absently -just to know it’s there, and the [...]

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Fear of the Ordinary

 It will be odd in a few days, taking packages to my former home (my ex wife retains the house and the art collection) and seeing no evidence of “me” there.  As to the season-I’m going to try to be extra merry after my little flirt with depression earlier on- going to parties and wearing red and green as [...]

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Children’s Choir

I made this little oil sketch (posterior view)of the children’s choir my five-year old son sings in during the Christmas holiday. (That’s him-extreme right)   Seeing them sing this week apparently stirred something in me. Sentimentality- a word I hate and something I condemn roundly, thoroughly and often, has somehow found it’s way into some of my [...]

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Settling Down

 

I am fortunately still in a really good place with the holidays today. I printed and addressed my cards (see design below) and they will go out (just in time) in the a.m. I’ve realized that the psychic trigger with them is that they’re among the most important of the tangible symbols that help to legitimize you [...]

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